Pureangelz

The year has been alright so far. I've been working on cosplay, playing games and done some creative things~ Though, I don't have a job :/ I have been applying for as many as I can but no luck so far ;_;
I really want to get out of here and get my own place, start my own life on my own terms.
I do feel restless and I'm trying to do things, but in the end I feel like I've not really accomplished anything :s 

I will keep on fighting!! >_< 

Yoooo! Damn I suck at writing these journals... Anyways, I'm currently working on a cosplay that I hope I'll finish until July and the convention (Närcon!). I'll try to work at it as much as I can and dust off this account by adding some more stuff, hopefully art too! Ughhh, I haven't drawn anything besides sketches on my new cosplay and I've got lots of school stuff to do >_>
Also my other cosplay for Närcon will be Tomoyo from Clannad, summer uniform!~ 

I started to watch some animes this spring and OH MY GOSH I haven't been this excited for every single episode to be released!

I've seen Kill La Kill (after seeing sooo many gifs about in tumblr) 
Sakura Trick (god I never seen such a sweet, sugarcoated shojou-ai!) 
 and Watamote (It doesn't really have a real plot, but god I love the girl and her comments/thoughts XD )

I can also add that I k-kinda have fallen in love with someone >/////> a-and that we're k-kinda together... (he confessed to me first holy shiet!) I guess thats pretty much all from me right now!
See you around!~

It's seriously fall now guys and winter is getting closer... (shrugs)

After weeks and weeks of silence from his side, me and my crush are done with eachother. I don't think we'll continue being friends, not as close as we used to be anyway… It's just so stupid and silly. So silly why he didn't talk to me right from the beginning, then this situation would've never occurred.
Ridiculous huh?
I say this to all of you who reads this, NEVER presume ANYTHING! There is nothing wrong with asking twice! If you at least try, there won't be any misunderstandings, and therefore there will be nothing to get sad or mad about.
I lost my crush because of his presuming and that he transformed me into something fake… It broke my heart, because you never think that the person you really care about suddenly gets these ideas of you that are not even true!

And there you are, standing all alone. You didn't do anything wrong, you didn't even move, but still everything went wrong because of what you did.

It's unfair. It's always unfair. Sometimes I just want to break my personality and tell everyone to fuck off and leave me alone.


But hey, I'm glad that this is over. :3
A very good friend of mine told me:
"Look at it this way though, if he had said yes you would have been with a pretty shallow person, which would no doubt not have been much fun either. In the end when you look at it like that, he did you a favor."
My friends are really the best. If it weren't for them, I don't know what I would've done. In situations like this, you can also really tell who your true friends are, and by that I mean, those who actually gives a fuck about what's going on in your life and are a great supporter!

I really need a hug, and a shoulder to cry on. I'm crying right now, I can't control it really. Tears of happiness and relief, but mostly sadness. I'm crying, all alone in my room, where not a soul can hear my sorrow. I actually want someone to hear it and come in and just hold me. No words, just a gentle embrace, slowly stroking my hair and just stay there for me…

And finally

Everybody deserves it. Every. Single. One.

Original tumblr post

This will tell you everything that has happened... Just read 1-4 in order and everything will be explained... ú_ù

1. knighthime.tumblr.com/post/512…

2. knighthime.tumblr.com/post/514…

3. knighthime.tumblr.com/post/516…

4. knighthime.tumblr.com/post/519…